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Many of you seem to be unhappy.

We don't all necessarily want you to be happy, but acceptance and adaptation to your situation would be a start. The only question that remains is: how?

It is clear to us that your species resolves many issues through communication. Unfortunately, none of us understand the human psyche as clearly as others of your species, and so I leave it to you to communicate with and to help one another.

You may consider this post an open forum in which you can discuss what's been bothering you. In turn, I will conceal your identities, so that you may help one another without preconceived biases. If you'd like to reveal yourselves to one another, the option is there, but unnecessary.

Heal. Recover.

I'll leave you to it.

[[This is an event post for the Never Log In event! Remember, characters are compelled to get things off of their chest here, as well as to help others- and of course, please stay oocly logged in for your comments!]]

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Oh, how generous of them as usual. This is often a good way to gather information. Perhaps the rest of you cannot see who others are but I'm quite sure they can. Everyone enjoys hiding after all behind these little things. Yet it is not as if I'm sleeping lately. My thoughts are keeping me awake when normally they don't. The last little 'event' of Confusion's has left me picking up extra pieces instead of just trying dispose of them.

So, what thoughts are keeping you awake then? Or are you satisfied with being vague?

That's certainly a way to pick at someone to give them answers. As I said, it was mostly to do with the doubles. Confusion's event partially put me at a loss. I'm not in the mood to lose friends just because there wasn't a way I could conceal things.

So, let me make sure I understand this correctly: You revealed your true nature? What's so bad about that?

I'm quite sure it pushed a friend of mine away. I enjoyed his company even if he was never my friend to begin with.

[Yukari's ready to shoot a snappy response, but he can actually sympathise with this, even if only slightly. He thought for sure his Clone ruined anything that he and Curufin might have had a chance at.

He takes a deep breath and types this instead:]

Maybe not. Have you had the chance to talk with him since?

Yes, I have. While he hasn't pushed me away entirely I've come to the realization that it is actually my fault. It's not the manner of which I acted but it is at the same time.

Well, if he hasn't pushed you away entirely, then... maybe it's not that bad? If it's your fault, fix it, however that may be.

[Yukari's going off of his personal feelings here, what he would do if he managed to upset Curufin. Despite that his own feelings are romantic and this guy's may be simply platonic.]

Maybe surprise him or something. Make him dinner. I don't know, whatever he likes.

In the end, though, if this is your true nature, it makes no sense to keep hiding it. We all have dark sides. Your friend, too.

There's a difference though, you see. They haven't pushed me away because I haven't let them. I've learned more about this person than I would've liked to if only because now I know that a simple dinner isn't going to fix things. It may never be fixed. It's worth the effort. It always is. Sort of. Or at least I think it will be. If I followed my true nature. If I listened to what I should, what my family says I should, almost all of you would be dead already. I could kill everyone here in roughly one minute if not stopped.

[Yea, Yukari's had no experience bending over backwards to appease someone.]

And you like them enough to fight your true nature?

[Very strange concept for Yukari, that one. Still, it's admirable that this guy is actually doing something about it, rather than crying like half the babies on this network.]

If you're willing to fight it, then it may not be your true nature. Just because it's a part of you doesn't mean it defines you. Whatever you've done. You should be what you want to be, no exceptions. If he stands in the way of that, then you should move on. But, if I didn't know any better, this guy gives you a reason to be honest with yourself, hmm?

I stopped fighting a very long time ago to get people to like me. It's honestly on them if they continue to judge you. But, if you find him worth fighting for, then do so with passion. There is no other excuse. Give it your all or don't. Whether he comes around or not is not your choice.

Of course I do. I enjoy the company of my friends. I enjoy life to the fullest including what I can take from it. Your words unfortunately do not help me but then I wasn't expecting anyone's words to actually help. This is all pointless. Anonymous only gives another mask to hide what we are. We'll only give advice on what our experiences are and not what someone may need. My drive will always push me. You're life must be rather lonely.

You're rather admirable, Anon-chan. Definitely one of the more respectable people on here.

Yes, I suppose that's to be expected. At least it wasn't some cheesy line like believe in yourself and it will magically happen.~ The Gods don't seem to know what they're doing most of the time, this would certainly be no different. Drive is a beautiful thing, though. [He actually kind of hopes things work out for this guy. Not that he'll admit that outloud.]

I most certainly am not lonely! [Excuse you!]

I want to say I don't see a point in any of this but it does clarify a lot of things I wouldn't normally get out. Not to mention if anyone sees and thinks for a moment then it satisfies and fixes something. Oh, did I hit a nerve? You'll excuse me if I entertain that notion. If you cast aside everyone that judges you I can't imagine you have many around you via friends or family.

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Do you truly think everyone would reject you if they knew what you were capable of? Capability and actually using those abilities against everyone are very different things.

No, I'm sure there would be a few who would keep me under watch yet not consider me dangerous. While the events influenced my decisions with my powers I cannot say I did not enjoy myself.

What did you enjoy most? Pardon my assumptions, but based on the conversation above this one, I am guessing something quite violent.

Are you concerned that you would lose friends if people knew that some part of you likes such things?

The thrill of battle. The challenge he gave me. The look in his eyes full of determination. It was hard to resist fighting all together. I was doing it at first to fix a problem but when I found so much more I had to indulge. I already am. There is no concern on 'if' when it is already happening. Normally I take care of the person to the point of removing the evidence. I don't regret my decisions yet I am. Maybe for myself. Maybe because it keeps me up at night.

My dear sir or madame, I don't think anyone's words on this extensive anonymous post have resonated with me quite as much as yours have just now. I do not know if it will bring you any comfort, but I assure you that you are not the only one who has difficulty resisting the siren song of a challenging fight.

You valued the bond you had with your friend and things have changed between the two of you. A reasonable thing to be concerned about.

Tell me about your friend. What is his personality like?

To see it. To hear. It's hard to resist. A good fight calls to me and while I don't need it to function and can live without it the temptation still exists to participate. I can avoid it if necessary.

Mysterious. Almost unknown. He wears a mask constantly behind a wide smile. I'm ashamed to say I know little or nothing about him.

The test of skill, the clash of wills, seeing whether someone will bloom or falter in adversity...not everyone can appreciate that specific variety of beauty. Battle is where I feel most alive. I'm glad to know there is a kindred spirit here. If we have not met in person yet, I hope that we will.

It sounds as if he deliberately keeps people at a distance. Perhaps the best thing you can do to salvage your friendship with him is simply to persist in being around and let him know that you like him including what you saw of him. Even if it changed things.

Yes, if we have not met before I do hope that we will. Battle is one of the few areas I can obtain true pleasure in life. The more I talk to those that have run into him the more I am coming to understand that. I suppose I merely wanted a confirmation of the matter. Some would call that stalking but I feel I am going to persist in the matter whether anyone likes it or not. Effort is required.

Sorrow has offered the option to reveal our identities to one another. I will if you will, sir or madame.

I wouldn't consider it stalking unless he told you to stay away from him.

[It's instant the way he reveals himself to this person without considering his actions. It's how he governs most of his life without that meticulous care or need to impress anymore.]

There, that should do it.

He hasn't.

[Ikaruga isn't afraid of taking risks, but she does think things through. There's a fair amount of pragmatism that goes along with being a mercenary. She's not entirely surprised to find out that this kindred spirit she was talking to is Tyki.]

I really should have guessed. Care to join me for a little shark hunting outing? It's been a long time since I've enjoyed shark fin soup.

Then you are free to persist in speaking to him. I would ask if your friend was that swordsman from the broadcast where we first met, but you mentioned smiling.

[She gets a rather welcoming smile almost immediately. It's genuine for starters as he always enjoyed seeing her.]

With pleasure, my lady. I wouldn't mind something so exotic.

It's not the swordsman though you will forgive me if I don't mention their name out loud even to you.

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[a wild ikaruga appears!]

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