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hadriel2018-08-16 08:42 am
puzzlingly) wrote in hadriel2018-08-16 08:42 am
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duel 11. video (cw: death or dying)
「It's been a while since he's made a video post in which he looks actually serious, he doesn't look sad for a change, just thoughtful.
When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.」
How do you deal with loss?
When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.」
What is that helps you to move on?
「If they do at all.
This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?
He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.」
「private text: Kaiba Seto」
Mokuba is gone.
「But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.」
When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.」
How do you deal with loss?
When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.」
What is that helps you to move on?
「If they do at all.
This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?
He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.」
「private text: Kaiba Seto」
Mokuba is gone.
「But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.」
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Do you always wear that scarf?
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「Huh, how blind has he been? Was not it a fashion choice like his? He had nothing to hide behind his the choker he always wore, but maybe Abigail does?」
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[Her family didn't have much and she couldn't shop from Hannibal's basement.]
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That makes sense, I guess.
「Naw, let's not... make things weird.」
Do you have anything you that you always carry though?
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[She glances down.]
I have a knife. It's from home. I got it during one of the god's attempts to mess with it. I don't always have it. But most of the time, I do.
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「It could be useful, truthfully, it doesn't have to be an item that's special in any way, but maybe he can give her something a little friendlier than a knife.」
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You could say that. It was my dad's knife.
[It's made from the bones of his victims.]
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「Yeahhhh... Good he doesn't know that, but also, it seems like something he should leave alone.」
I'll find you something else.
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I was joking though, I don't expect to find one here.
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「Though, it's completely not what he meant by that, no worries, he'll explain when the time comes.」
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It's bad. Scary.
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「Misunderstood, that's understatement. He'd do it without her knowing but, acting on his own account has been bad in this place, apparently no one liked that or something.」
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[She looks at him curiously.]
How did you get to know Rage? I don't think of you as the angry type.
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「Maybe share a memory or something who knows, they could also play monopoly......
He has to chuckle at that. 」
You'd be surprised but, no, I've talked to her fairly often, just... that, we chat. She's more interesting than many here give her credit for. She hurts and worries just as anyone else, but it's true, she needs the power from that emotion. That doesn't mean she's evil or malicious.
「Of all people, of course it'd be him who would make friends with the most strange individuals. Don't even doubt it.」
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[Wouldn't it be nice to have something in Hadriel that doesn't hurt?]
[That sounds almost like one of Hannibal's lessons about her dad. He loved her, in the only he could. He needed to satisfy his sickness too. Nothing was simple as good or evil. Hannibal could justify everything he did.]
People don't have to be evil or malicious to be dangerous.
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No, you're right, but intentions matter.
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Do they? My father acted out of love. I doubt that mattered to his victims or their families.
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It mattered to you, in the end, did it not?
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[Her eyes fill with tears.]
I still hate that it all happened. I still have nightmares and guilt.
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Her tears are contagious in a way, his eyes feel a little hazy, nothing that rapid blinking will not hide, but if he keeps bitting his lower lip like this, it'll start bleeding.」
Where are you...?
「He whispers just a little moment of silence later.」
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Sorry. I guess this isn't helping you with the whole moving on thing, huh?
[She manages another smile, but there's still sadness in her eyes.]
I'm home. The apartment I share with Will.
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「He feels so bad that he probably should just tell her what this is about, but that could probably be even worse, show how selfish he can be.」
Can I go see you?
「He doesn't know where that is.」
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