SECOND SONG ♫ TEXT

[hasitsthorns]

[ At some time that is far too late for probably anyone to be awake, a message comes across the network.

God, how she's missed being able to text. ]

Have you ever done something you regret? That you're ashamed of?
Maybe it's a lot of things. It is for me.

How do you deal with that now?
Did you find a way to make it better or did you just ignore it until it went away?
(The latter is my strategy. Hasn't worked out so well, let me tell you.)

I have trouble sometimes with it all still.
I try to do better, but...
Trying only gets you so far sometimes.

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[hasitsthorns]

There was one time, when I got... really angry with someone that I just, I don't know. Snapped?

[ Anger seems to be a running theme; it's why Rose tries to keep herself open-minded and reasonable. ]

Otherwise, mostly just self-defense.

[hasitsthorns]

Trust me, I'm aware.

[ Even before her 'condition,' Rose was careful about letting her anger go unchecked. The rage she'd felt in the ring was... nothing she ever wanted to experience again. Perhaps that's why her brain was wired for anger = death, truthfully. It'd been the only proper outlet for her aggression for a long, long time. ]

I'll work on it. Maybe start up cave yoga or something, I'unno. [ A half-hearted attempt at a joke. ]

[hasitsthorns]

It's not exactly something I'm proud of.

[ Nor would she call her most powerful asset; Rose doesn't want that to be what she's known for. Not anymore. ]

But, I mean. What would you suggest?

[ Suppression is about the only tactic she knows nowadays. It's served her well (no, it hasn't) so far. ]

[hasitsthorns]

It wasn't always.

[ Kite made her what she is now; it's something she'll never forgive him for. He may be dead and buried, but he deserved worse for the pain her inflicted on her and others. ]

-But, yeah, alright. Fair point. [ A dramatic sigh. ] I hate having to figure stuff out, man. It sucks.

[ Understatement of the year award goes to... ]

[hasitsthorns]

It is!

[ Life is hard, etc. Dramatic throw up of her arms inserted here. ]

Whenever I gotta' make big decisions, they go bad. So I just stopped deciding things and let fate take control. [ ... Granted, 'fate' is what led her to a life half-lived and Haven. Now Hadriel, too. So. Fate kind of blows as well. ]

[hasitsthorns]

I'm always a wreck, dude.

[ It's just been showing more lately. And she meant it as a joke, but... There's a bit too much truth there for it to really be funny. ]

Yeah, I mean. I figured what with the whole faux fight thing.