hadriel | duel 11. video (cw: death or dying)

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duel 11. video (cw: death or dying)

「It's been a while since he's made a video post in which he looks actually serious, he doesn't look sad for a change, just thoughtful.

When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.」

How do you deal with loss?

When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.」

What is that helps you to move on?

「If they do at all.

This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?

He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.」

「private text: Kaiba Seto」

Mokuba is gone.

「But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.」

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Hi to you too.

「Now he's being a little smartass, but it's all in good mood.」

So I've been told. Do you do that? Talk and all?

[nothing wrong with being a smartass. she can be one herself when she wants to]

...I didn't used to. And to be honest, the only person I've told my whole story to is Dr. Sweets and that was, y'know, a doctor/patient thing.

Ah... yeah, he does that I guess.

「If felt so odd to him to try to keep people categorized in some way, accordingly to their affections. Surely it helped in some way, but for him, it was impossible not to get attached to people and actually care about their problems rather than talk to someone who merely analyzed them. It seemed too cold.」

Did it help at all?

Yeah. I'd went to a shrink back home, but I didn't go into all of the details. Here, I told all of the details.

[and most of them were gruesome and horrifying, what happened to her and what she did in response]

I think so? I hope so.

「He has to wonder what all this information does to Lance, however... Atem barely could deal with one mess of a woman back then, when Rey was not okay at all, trying to keep her on float wasn't easy task; of course, it had been different, he had forced his way in, she did not ask the help. It was still a lot to deal with.」

I hope so too. 「He says with a smile, and really means it.」 This place seems to be like... a catalyst of sorts at times. Having too much time in our hands does that, I guess.

[it likely wears on him. goodness knows Laura's story was . . . harrowing and dealt with subjects he hadn't had to deal with before]

That would be it. Too much time with nothing to do but think. I work two jobs and I still have too much time left.

Hmm, yeah, I know what you mean. 「He, she, and probably half of Hadriel.」 I guess it works on favor of the gods, but it doesn't help us much; even I can play at the arcade for so long before it gets a little mind numbing.

Haven't you taken any kind of training here? It often helps you sleep better when everything hurts.

「Given the nature of the place, and how dangerous it could be, it also seemed something people would do very often here.」

God, I know. Too bad there's not a god of boredom, he'd always be full.

I take archery lessons with Cecily. It. . . seemed like a good idea.

[because Caedra showed up and left Laura stuck living with a demon again]

Heh, yeah, tranquility might get it, though.

「Archery, huh, color him surprised.」

Did you find it hard to learn?

「Can't they take a break from that stuff already?」

There's a huge difference between being tranquil and being bored. Tranquility is not doing something and being cool with it. Boredom is not doing something and wishing you could.

[they had archery lessons in high school, it seemed sensible to go with that]

A little? I already knew some stuff, but I need to get faster.

[no relief from demons, unfortunately]

Don't you practice every day?

I do. Every day. I know I can't count on anyone to defend me but me, so I'm trying to get as good as possible.

I understand.

「He idly wonders if she had any unfortunate encounter lately.」

Good luck with that.

[every encounter with Caedra is unfortunate. even though Laura knows she can't kill her as long as she wears her ring, she knows that she's the only one here with such protection]

Thanks. I'll probably need it if I ever have to--well. Do something.

「It's so unfortunate they don't know more of the other, maybe it'd bring her a little peace of mind to find out what Atem has been working on for the past month. He and Carlisle managed to make something just as powerful for one of his closest friend without even knowing it, among some less powerful items to work against the demon's powers. That, if he could, he would make one of those for every single person in Hadriel, but that's why he'd rather look into other kind of... methods to hold Caedra down.」

It's not a terrible skill to have anyway. It's been a long time since I practiced archery, but it can be even a little fun.

「He knows they cannot afford that sort of entertainment, that's the point of learning is to actually kill rather than hit just some targets, but it could be fun anyway!」

But that's not all you have, right?

[it would. she feels strangely. . . responsible for Caedra as though just her presence summoned a demon in place of BOB. she'd rather it was BOB, at least he kept his torment to just Laura instead of taking it out on the entire town. but in the meantime, Laura keeps tabs on Caedra as best as she can and she practices her archery]

Yeah, and I can feel myself getting better. Like I've got actual muscles in my arms now. And it is fun.

[she wouldn't use it against anyone but Caedra. or the Null, if they came back]

Not all I have? What d'you mean?

「It's strange how... he feels exactly the same. It is part of him to be against everything that's evil after all, it came as part of his job as Pharaoh and all that jazz.」

Can you protect yourself in a shorter range?

「That's what he means.」

Pepper spray, maybe? I heard those were a thing.

「Okay he might be joking a little there, but it wouldn't be a terrible idea!」

[and Laura's just a girl who's suffered greatly at the hands of a demon and doesn't want to see the same thing happen to anyone else]

Not. . . really? I guess I should look into that, huh?

Do they have that at the armory?

[no, it wouldn't, but she's not sure how effective it would be against a demon]

「Same, man... same. One doesn't quite get over the fact a demon destroyed their homeland and killed most of their people after all. But people don't listen.」

Nope. Ask Rage maybe, I'm sure she'd have a field day with that.

「It would only make it angrier! But just getting to laugh at the face it'd make would make it all worth it.」

[no, they don't. and people actually seem to trust it. that blows her mind in a bad way]

I'd have to do something for her, right? I've never done the whole "ask the gods for stuff" thing before.

[not gonna lie, she would love to be able to laugh in Caedra's face. she would love it a lot]

「He'd get it...」

Yeah, maybe she'll ask you to piss someone off. You can try with me, if you want. I don't mind, mostly because, she needs the power too.

「He's weird like that. And He would love to piss the demon off! Are they are far too gone?」

[she considers]

I used to be really good at pissing people off. I've kind of been trying to avoid that here. Not on purpose, exactly, it's just that it's easier to try to get along with people.

[probably? pissing Caedra off is like pissing a lion off]

「Lions are big kitties tho, not abominations.」

You know I'm joking right? But, either way, it might be wise to have a close range weapon with you as well.

「A knife to the gut was still a good thing against a corporeal demon that could bleed.」

[this is true]

Yeah? Okay. I guess I'll check the armory, see what I can find. Not a sword, that would take way too much training, but a knife would probably work.

[she's glad that she doesn't have to go to the gods after all. for the most part, she prefers to ignore their presence as much as possible]

Swords are not for everyone. And, I agree, something small and unpredictable.

「It goes with a wink. Ah! If she only knew!」

that works yes! 👌

yay!

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