hadriel | duel 11. video (cw: death or dying)

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duel 11. video (cw: death or dying)

「It's been a while since he's made a video post in which he looks actually serious, he doesn't look sad for a change, just thoughtful.

When he finally speaks he does it uncharacteristically (for him) quietly, even though, firm.」

How do you deal with loss?

When people leave this place or, when you know you will never see someone you care for again?
When they pass away.
Do you try to forget about them... or... 「No, that thought actually hurts.」

What is that helps you to move on?

「If they do at all.

This has been in his mind ever since Maedhros and Celebrimbor were gone, and even way before. He didn't knew them personally, but he could see how much pain their departure had caused — only one person had made him feel that way, but it wasn't Yugi who left, it was him. Atem left them all and he cannot help but wonder, was he the cause of grief among his loved ones, the ones that survived him when he decided to give up his life, and then when he had to move on from the world of the living a second time?

He doesn't wish to think so highly of himself, but it's hard, specially when all his life the world did use to revolve around him. But he worries about those he left behind, they would be fine, wouldn't they? Heh, if only they knew he hasn't moved on at all, that he still talks to his partner in his head all the time... What a little hypocrite.」

「private text: Kaiba Seto」

Mokuba is gone.

「But Atem is sure he already knows. He doesn't expect a reply.」

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I don't think you're stupid. I'd rather it not be anyone. Or at least not anyone I know.

[It's selfish but she'd sacrifice the ones she doesn't know for the people she cares about.]

Do what you have to. I'll keep your secret.

How do you know her..know it?

「She doesn't have to lower to his level, he's petty and he knows it; calling Caedra "her" doesn't matter to him, he simply won't do it himself.

It doesn't sound selfish, she sounds worried when she shouldn't be. Just another reason to hate the demon.」

I've been unfortunate to know of its deeds... Then it did the same it did to you. That's when I met it in person for the first time.

You got away from it too? Do you think that means it doesn't really kill or that it likes to play with its prey first?

As I said, I was lucky. I'm not sure if it killed anyone during those days — there was something about making people mad and helping Rage in that moment, even though it was just an excuse to do what it always does. And no, don't be fooled, it's killed a lot of people so far, but, I don't know why it didn't kill you...

Maybe it thought I would get mad once I was safe and not scared. Joke's on it. I'm always scared.

「Aren't they all...」

I'm sorry...

「Why is it so hard to keep his friends just, happy? It's not up to him he knows it, but it's hard to let go.」

But, as I said, I'm sure it won't bother you for now and maybe you should enjoy the moment of respire. If we are lucky a kraken might eat it, though it might get an indigestion...

「Look, it's an attempt of a joke and all. A very lame one, he's not good at those. Please smile, friendo.」

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[She manages a little smile for him.]

Or it might get to full to eat anyone else. Or poisoned by her nastiness. Two birds with one stone.

Are you going off anywhere?

Good one.

「There we go.」

Me? No. I wouldn't be useful out there at all.

And you're useful here.

「Color him surprised, no really that brings a rosy tone to his cheeks. Is very nice to hear that somehow.」

Ah, am I, now?

[She gives him a bigger smile at the way he blushes.]

Yeah, you're my friend. We all need friends, right?

「Aw man, it is usually him who says that kind of things! It's embarrassing in a very good wa.」

Yeah, and glad you are mine too.

「After how badly they had started, Atem doubted at moments that she could ever trust him, it's really regarding.」

Everything will be fine.

「Right...」

Yeah. Maybe. I've lasted this long here. That's got to mean something.

[Her smile starts to fade.]

But if it isn't fine, you know it's not your fault, right?

「His fades completely, however. Since when does she know him that well?」

... It... I guess it wouldn't be, yeah.

It wouldn't be. Bad things always happen. Doesn't make'em our fault. You have to be able to live with it if I'm not here or other people aren't here.

「She saw right through him, huh? He looks a little guilty, it's hard not to assume responsibilities.」

I will try to remember that.

「Gonna be hard as hell. It already is.」

[She gives him a little smile.]

You could always write it down. Put it near your bed so when you can't sleep you can read it.

Sounds like a good idea. Do you do that yourself?

Sort of. I keep little things next to my bed that remind me of my life here, in case I have a nightmare about past stuff.

What kind of things?

Pictures I've drawn, a scarf Margaery made for me, things like that.

「!!」

Do you always wear that scarf?

No, I have different scarves. And some other clothes she made that cover my neck.

Cover it?

「Huh, how blind has he been? Was not it a fashion choice like his? He had nothing to hide behind his the choker he always wore, but maybe Abigail does?」

Yeah. She even made me a swimsuit so we can go swimming. And I have other clothes I found in the shops. I might have more clothes here than I did back home.

[Her family didn't have much and she couldn't shop from Hannibal's basement.]

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