Rosie "Has No Chill" Nozomi (
hasitsthorns) wrote in
hadriel2016-11-08 10:12 pm
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SECOND SONG ♫ TEXT
[ At some time that is far too late for probably anyone to be awake, a message comes across the network.
God, how she's missed being able to text. ]
Have you ever done something you regret? That you're ashamed of?
Maybe it's a lot of things. It is for me.
How do you deal with that now?
Did you find a way to make it better or did you just ignore it until it went away?
(The latter is my strategy. Hasn't worked out so well, let me tell you.)
I have trouble sometimes with it all still.
I try to do better, but...
Trying only gets you so far sometimes.
God, how she's missed being able to text. ]
Have you ever done something you regret? That you're ashamed of?
Maybe it's a lot of things. It is for me.
How do you deal with that now?
Did you find a way to make it better or did you just ignore it until it went away?
(The latter is my strategy. Hasn't worked out so well, let me tell you.)
I have trouble sometimes with it all still.
I try to do better, but...
Trying only gets you so far sometimes.

[video]
[ It's an excellent song. It also seems like they have something in common beyond music. Lying. ]
Ah, I wish. Easier said than done and all that, right?
[video]
It takes practice and mindfulness, dearheart, but it can be done. What did you do?
[video; private]
I've killed people. It seems to depend on the person whether or not that's a big deal, but-
I did it first because I had no choice. Then because I was angry. Now because I have a hard time stopping myself when I lose control.
[video; private]
I have been a terrible person, in my time. I have done dreadful things. One thing I do know, though, is that redemption - forgiveness - are very real, are always possible.
[video; private]
[ People in Haven after a time didn't though and... Well, she never hurt anyone then. But before when she knew it was only temporary it didn't seem as much of a big deal. As terrible of a thing to eat a person now and again. They'd just come back anyway. Traumatized, maybe, but they'd still be alive. ]
I'd like to believe that. I'm sure it's gonna take me a long, long time to be redeemed though. Guess it's a good thing I'm in this place for the long haul... Or at least they decide to kick me out, I suppose.