hadriel | SECOND SONG ♫ TEXT

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[ At some time that is far too late for probably anyone to be awake, a message comes across the network.

God, how she's missed being able to text. ]

Have you ever done something you regret? That you're ashamed of?
Maybe it's a lot of things. It is for me.

How do you deal with that now?
Did you find a way to make it better or did you just ignore it until it went away?
(The latter is my strategy. Hasn't worked out so well, let me tell you.)

I have trouble sometimes with it all still.
I try to do better, but...
Trying only gets you so far sometimes.

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yeah
I feel you there
It's kind of nice to have a distraction but it sucks when you have to go back to everything

I don't know
I'm sorry
I think I have the same problem

yeah
im p world-class at distractions lmao
but life finds a way to creep in

i wish it didnt
but i guess were both past that huh
i just... wish someone else would deal w it for once
but its my problems so nobody else deserves to suffer for it

it always does, unfortunately
doesn't mean I stop trying to avoid it tho
you think I'd learn

nobody deserves to suffer, but
if they WANT to, might not be such a bad idea to let them help carry the load
I still don't get it
but I've met a couple people actually who want to put up with my bullshit
crazy, right?

haha yeah same
youd imagine thered be like
a threshold of 'youve procrastinated enough for the Thing To Leave' lmao
just poof its gone
congratulations ur free

and haha id... like to believe that yknow
that people actually wanna do that
i just feel like
if they see the real me
theyll leave
they wont be able to handle it
and ill lose them

you'd imagine
but that doesn't seem to be the case
at least not for me

hey
as someone who has hit rock bottom
and been seen as one of the worst monsters they could be BY the people who are still with me
you never know
I didn't believe they'd stick around either or wanna deal with it yet
they're still here

[ They're her packmates, her everything. Not all of them are here, of course, but... The ones that are, she'll always be grateful to. ]

youd think there'd be a god of that or smth
like. the god of making your problems stop happening

[She finds it in herself to smile at the next bit. That's... a nice thought. A nice sentiment.]

i mean they all have their own problems
im glad u have people like that tho
i only have a couple people i know from home here anyway
so uh
new start i guess!!!!
or something

man
that god would be the BEST
but unfortunately we're stuck with the ones here

[ A... hopeful smile??? Since, y'know, she needs hope for Hope and all. ]

new starts aren't bad!
that's how Haven was for me
and where I met these cool people I've mentioned so
you never know, yeah?
These places can get pretty bad, but
There's definitely some good too

[Well, it is reassuring! And... yeah, kind of hopeful. At least hope for other people, if not herself. She has a very hard time with that.]

thats nice to think about
thank you
i wish i could do more here but
we're pretty limited
im not much of a fighter so its like
when stuff gets bad i just Leave lmao
i feel bad about it though

[ Yesssss, hope. One step closer to getting her hand back! Typing one-handed is hard, okay. ]

hey no problem

and yeah, it does kind of suck
my science friends are doing alright though they don't have much to work with
and hey, grass is always greener on the other side
i wish I could just leave or stay out of trouble
but I got a mean fighting instinct and sometimes I can't help but run headlong into trouble, y'know?

[Oh jeez well she'd try to be more hopeful if she knew that. Everybody deserves to at least have two hands, goodness.]

your... science friends?
i know a couple scientists
i mean im. also a scientist lmao but uh anyway
at least you can do something y'know
i feel useless just... studyin stuff and failing all the time

[ Not Rose, apparently. ]

newt and hermann
we go back, came from the same world before this one
you're a scientist too though? what do you study?
and i'm sure you don't fail
besides, isn't being wrong part of science? like...
if it doesn't go right, you have to find out why!
the scientific method or. something.
I have no idea newt tries to explain it to me sometimes but

oh!
ive spoken to them before
they knew a friend of mine

but uh im an engineer, mostly
so idk i guess i feel bad when i mess up more
since like if a physicist messes up it was all theory
for me its a big waste of material lmao
tho i try to repurpose stuff as much as i can

oh yeah?
I live with em
they're really cool dudes

well hey!
you're resourceful then
gotta look on the bright side

oh!
then uhm maybe you know sans and papyrus?
theyre friends of mine from back home
ive been staying with them here

and lmao i gotta be
otherwise id have nothin
resources werent super vast back home either

ah, yeah, i've met them

[ She met the harsh end of San's out of control powers, actually. It wasn't a fun time. Not that she holds anything against him. ]

they're cool
i'm glad you have people from home!

they weren't?
are you from like a post apocalyptic world too?
seems like there's a lot of those out there

me too
i mean i dont know them super well
and its kind of mean to want them here
but im happy to see them

[She is... curious that Sans hasn't talked about the Underground at all. But Sans doesn't like to talk about himself much.]

well no um
we live underground
we were sealed there by humans thousands of years ago
so anything we get needs to come from the mountain
or from human stuff falling in
so getting good metals and parts is like
hard as heck
lots of taking apart toasters n stuff

[ Rose struggles with that, too. She wants her friends to be happy and free, but she also would hate to be without them. Especially considering how quickly she lost it last time without their support. ]

I'm sorry humans did that to you
humans aren't very understanding of my kind either
well
at least not where i'm from
seems like places like these are a bit more understanding, at least

i mean its ok
i guess
ive only ever really met one human ever it was so long ago

really i didnt know what to expect here
but as it turns out
most people have never even heard of monsters
or at least not like our kind
and idk if thats bc we dont exist in their world
or that
were just entirely forgotten yknow

but i guess its past now
and!!! were here and not there
So Thats Something lmao

im sorry weve like never talked before and now theres all this haha
im just One Big Drama Monster
literally
sorry for draggin all my trash emotions here

it's not really though
humans are capable of the same things 'monsters' are
but I've also seen monsters capable of great things, so
sometimes I wonder what really makes us so different
at least in my world
it could be different other places

hey, no worries!
I like talking
and getting to know people, so
feel free to talk away
and emotions are cool too
goodness knows I have my share of trash emotions myself

i mean theres a bunch of scientific differences
at least in my world but
thats not the point really
humans are plenty capable of love and understanding and all that
i mean i dont see why they wouldnt be
then again i dont have much personal experience lmao

but uhm
thank you
its nice

[She's nice, Alphys thinks, but is far too shy to say it.]

well yeah
THOSE differences but
as far as personality and points of view...
sometimes we're not so different

and hey! no problem
feel free to talk me whenever really
like I said
i'm pretty well versed in being garbage so
i got you

well uhm
thank you again!!!!
and uhm
i hope you get help with your thing too
what this post was Actually About lmao
i mean uh
i hope i helped too or whatever
yeah

hey, it's no problem!
and thanks
you did
I appreciate it

well.....
okay!!!!!!
see you around =^w^=

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