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[iustitiae]

Hey! Guys! Did you know there are demons here?

[hey look it's connor with the best/worst sarcastic message for you today. many posts lately have been about demons and justifiably so but connor is a shitposter and he's back so hang on or hang up on him. (that's the better option lets all be honest with ourselves)]

Since we're all smart people who definitely aren't going outside to get possessed or die on the network -- seriously, please, stop doing that -- I figured we should at least pick a game to pass the time. You know, like being on a long road trip and playing "I Spy" or some shit.

[he starts to say something else but apparently thinks better of it, because he smiles instead and reconsiders his words]

No, actually, first - a bunch of you guys are sleeping together, right? But who isn't? The lack of having an app to prove we're all cute, single, available people is clearly an oversight. (Really, pong before tindr? Also, calling it now: please, spelunkr, make it happen.) Discuss among yourselves.

[but oh right the game he seems to only remember now that's where he started, and he's maybe a little tipsy but wouldnt you be if THERE WERE DEMONS and people were doing dumb things like getting almost killed or worse on the network]

Oh, yeah, the game. Hot or Not. Post a picture of yourself and other people rate it for hotness. Honestly I'm not even going to care if you post a picture of someone not yourself. Have at it, kids.

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[He stares for a minute.]

Have you been taking pictures of me while I've been fighting?

[I mean obviously she has to have, with this picture. He just feels a little. Exposed.]

video duh I should've said;

[enchangement]

Sometimes.

She has this one too.

[ This one being: ]

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[He's frowning.]

I never noticed. Why are you taking pictures of me?

[enchangement]

So she doesn't forget.

[ Because she's a nosy sneak. ]

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[Well that makes him pause. Because well. Memory's a big deal for him. So he just nods awkwardly.]

Okay.

[enchangement]

You took a photo of yourself and someone said something nice and it was true.

It's good for your self esteem.

You both need more of it.

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[He frowns, confused. His icon is exactly the face he is making.]

No? I'm... fine?

[Because what's the point of it? He doesn't need to feel good about himself, he just needs to be good. Or skilled, rather, but...

WHY IS BEING A PERSON CONFUSING.]

[enchangement]

Nooooo.

Feeling good is as important as being good. Sometimes it's more important, when feeling is stronger than being.

[ It's like she can read your mind or something ain't it. ]

[wipedclean]

[GODDAMMIT RIVER. Frowny face atchu.]

Feelings are confusing.

[enchangement]

[ Grinning right back. ]

Good feelings are important! Like when...

When Steve smiles at you and it's just because and your chest gets tight?

Good feeling. Self esteem. Important.

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[He tugs on his hair, makes a face.]

I guess.

[He can't deny the chest getting tight part. Or that it feels good when Steve smiles at him. But he's feeling petulant anyway, like he often does when he's learning something new about being a real boy.]

[enchangement]

It's good to feel good when you're alone. Or when you're busy.

It helps. It helps a lot.

But it's hard too.

[ She makes a heart shape with her hands at the camera. ]

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[He bites back all the Hydra-ingrained mantras of how feelings are not only irrelevant, they're dangerous, because they can't be controlled. How it doesn't matter what he thinks of himself, only that he's completing his missions in a satisfactory manner.

He's trying to move past that. At least a little. Just while he's here, anyway. While he has the chance.

So instead he just nods.]

It's hard.

[enchangement]

It's okay not to be perfect.

Or to be tired, or anything else.

It's hard.

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[He doesn't really respond to that. He just looks down. Away.

It is hard. And he's tired. So tired.

"Perfect" was never the word used for him, but it was expected of him nonetheless.

He just shakes his head a little and doesn't say anything.]

[enchangement]

[ She's not going to continue poking at him about it.

But he does get a big hug the next time she sees him. ]

[wipedclean]

[He will accept that hug.]

[iustitiae]

Um, why do you only have sad pictures of guys?

[the question needed to be asked]

[enchangement]

Because they need to smile more.

[iustitiae]

[that is some weirdly solid logic damn]

Oh. Huh.

[enchangement]

Steve thinks he is too small.

Bucky doesn't remember.

And Simon is too busy being a boob.

[iustitiae]

Steve probably isn't small where it counts.

[i'm sorry everyone im sorry captain america forgive my sins]

[enchangement]

No.

His heart could hold the world.

[ She sees your innuendo and raises it to...truth. ]

[iustitiae]

[river tam dropping some truth bombs]

He sounds like a good guy.