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[prophesiedone]

[Meditation is essential to communing with the Force, no matter how chaotic and crippled it feels in the cave. He is sitting in a ruin of a building, perched on what used to be a wall, legs crossed.]

We are all protected here. More than you think. [Against futures they do not want to face.] My visions haven't changed. It might be impossible to rectify anything.

[How cruel to stand on the precipice, see the monsters within and have no weapon; no defense.

"Beware that, when fighting monsters, you yourself do not become a monster... for when you gaze long into the abyss. The abyss gazes also into you."]

I think it's time I bite the bullet and accept -

[Oh boy. He chuckles shakily.]

It was a nice dream.

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[castintofire]

{Maedhros goes hunting, rather than answer immediately. He's been here, and he knows Anakin by this point.

So he looks high, and eventually comes to stand beside him, then takes a seat on the broken wall.}

Sometimes it is the dream which drives us. I had not thought you would give up, Anakin.

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[prophesiedone]

Is it giving up or accepting reality? [He smiles without warmth, reaching out to tuck some of the red strands behind Maedhros's ear.] I will wish I had died when I go back. That's when I'll become Vader in truth.

I've seen him so many times... [His eyes close, recalling the images of a black-clad powerhouse with breathing that is bound to give others nightmares.] I can do anything, but what will be the point?

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[castintofire]

{Maedhros reaches to slip an arm around Anakin and leans into the gentle touch.} I would be there with you if I could. I do not like knowing you are alone there.

{He kisses the top of the Man's head, holding him close.} Because I do not wish for you to give up. I do not want to see your fiery spirit crushed. Is that enough?

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[bythewaves]

Dreams are dreams; only one facet of what might be the truth of the world.

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[prophesiedone]

Right.

One facet.

Not the larger reality.

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[bythewaves]

Then can you live in the smaller truth, rather than the larger?

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[elegant_and_proud]

[It's odd, how fake memories can still hold sway over her current emotions. She recalls having Anakin as a brother in that fake reality, and still feels sisterly concern despite knowing it is fake.]

It has been said that we all return to the point in time we were originally taken from. You have not changed course yet in your timeline.

[She pauses for a moment.]

Have you determined what you want to do differently than what you were planning on before you came here?

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[prophesiedone]

[He wanted siblings as a child. Of course that would have been difficult for his poor mother - their situation was bad enough - but that didn't stop the desire. If anything, the fake memories have only made him feel more affectionate towards her and that isn't a bad thing.]

...right. Which means everything I've learned here will be forgotten.

[Running a hand through his hair, he frowns.]

...yes. There is one major difference.

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[elegant_and_proud]

The gods' powers can affect memories. Perhaps you might be able to make an arrangement with them to preserve your memories of your time here.

[That's what she's planning on doing. She's also not planning on going back to her own world if it can be avoided.]

What will you do differently?

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[utulien_aure]

Being effectively dead, I think the only thing the city is protecting me from is frustration and boredom in the Doomsman's Halls.

[As opposed to frustration and boredom here.

Also maybe guilt and grief and pain but why talk about that when you can make bad jokes about the hospitality in Mandos?]

What exactly are you considering accepting?

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[prophesiedone]

...sorry. [He understands this must be rough for someone like Fingon. Like he needs to be reminded of his death. Good job, Anakin.] My reality. I've tried to convince myself I can fix everything that goes wrong.

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[evocation]

[Kyna's frowning down at the phone, utterly mystified.]

Uh... What are you even talking about?

[Poor Anakin.]

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[prophesiedone]

Reality. Mine to be more specific. I've been running from it. [Sorry, Kyna. He has issues.]

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[am_i_a_monster]

How are we protected?

Nice dreams are rare.

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[prophesiedone]

From the futures we might...will...have in our galaxies.

Yeah, they are.

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[ghostlocked]

ok hold up. so my pal heres just informed me that ur apparently anakin skywalker.
like from tatooine and shit. darth vader.
that true?

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[prophesiedone]

Your pal isn't lying.

Why do you want to know?

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[ritualized]

Many dreams are, I'm afraid.

[Even some of the weeks here have felt like dreams, none more so than the end of last month. She feels fuller for the experience, in ways, but that can't erode the sting.

Irisviel seems to be sitting somewhere with a cup of tea. She looks a little peaked, and stirs it while she talks.]

It is difficult, you know. We don't like to acknowledge struggle. But I've been wondering, myself: If it's impossible, does that mean you stop trying?

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[prophesiedone]

This one...

I need for it to be true. There's no point in moving forward otherwise. [No point in trying. If he is destined to lose Padmé, not raise his kids and live the rest of his days in a mechanical suit, he sees no point in striving for any sort of happiness. All he can really hope for is cheap revenge when/if Obi-Wan or Sidious arrives.]

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[wormintheglass]

You never told me you had visions, my darling.

Did you miss me?

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[prophesiedone]

You never asked!

[He chuckles.] Maybe a little.

[farmboyjedi]

I've wondered about that myself, father. I want so much to help you here...even if it might not be able to change what happens back home.

I will say that to me, it doesn't matter that yo made mistakes...that you were mislead. I still know the man you really were, and I know there is always good in you.

I wish we could change it somehow. Find a way to make things different back home.

[Still, he reaches out, trying to connect with his father in the Force, trying to share comfort and show his feelings as best he can. Everyone looks to him for guidance now, but he feels helpless at this, wishing he knew what to do, how to help.]

But how many other things would change...it's so confusing....

[prophesiedone]

[It amazes him, frankly, that Luke wants to help him. He knows better than to expect that out of his son - or anyone, truly. Everything went so wrong and he lost himself along the way. While he still considers himself a Sith Lord, he no longer trusts Darth Sidious in the least. He knows the man must die.]

I wish that too.

[He smiles faintly, tiredly.]

I would change everything to know that you, your sister and your mother are safe. [That's what he has been trying to do all along.] I think Sidious used that against me.

[so_dark_a_road]

The dream of what, Anakin? -- that you could change your destiny?

Maybe we can never do that. But we can change ourselves.

[prophesiedone]

What's the point of even doing that? We probably won't even remember how we changed. [He's Mr. Pessimistic right now. Sorry, Curufin.]